Happy birthday my dearest Kim Heechul

It’s disappointing that you had such thoughts just before your birthday. We had so much in store for you, so many surprises. We kept awake just to wish you a happy birthday at 12AM KST sharp, even though you may not have seen any of it due to the high influx of mentions that you’d definitely receive. It made me so heartbroken when I realized what you tweeted yesterday; what you said..I had a lot of hate in my heart, hate for those people who were so mean to you, but on the other hand, I felt hatred to myself as well..hatred..for not being able to be beside you, to tell you, “It’s okay”, or to pat your shoulder and reassure, “Don’t worry, even if the whole world abandons you, I’d still be right beside you”. So many things I couldn’t do, not like I even had the right to anyway. You probably wouldn’t talk to someone as uncool and untactful as me, someone so plain and not in the least bit attractive to the majority of the population. But everything is okay, and I don’t mind, as long as I can be here for you. I will always pray for you. Every single day. I don’t mind at all that you deactivated. As long as you’re happy, as long as you feel better about it, go ahead. Don’t worry about it, we will wait. I will wait. No matter how long it takes. 오빠를 기다릴게요

I hope you had a very good day today, forget the unhappiness, throw it all away, into the deep deep ocean. I have will always hope for the best for you. Remember to sleep well, eat well, and take good care of dear Heebum and the other baby whose name I have entirely forgotten. I’M SO SORRY LOL. Don’t forget to do what you want, have a good rest every day after reaching home, and don’t overwork yourself! Make more friends, go out and have fun, and remember to stay pretty! I wish you everlasting happiness and blessings, my dearest, first, and loveliest 여보. Everything I do, is for you.

- Admin Janna